Life As I Know It

Since writing about my first Foster Care experience, I have had the opportunity to do respite care for 2 sibling groups and then did a 3 month placement with a little girl who was 16 months old when I got her.  I have learned a lot.  I've learned that try as I might I will not be able to be detached from the kiddos in my home.  People tell me to hold back a piece of my heart.  It's impossible.  And really - these foster babies deserve more. 

Anyway - I can say that I look at my fostering times with gladness and appreciation.  I also look forward to our next placements and hopefully that will be soon.  We have gotten 4 calls since our last foster baby left.  But they were "no-shows" - the children remained in their homes.  Getting a call puts us on alert - we are excited, nervous, anxious, curious.  Then we find out that the child isn't coming...and I have realized that I get attached to children that I haven't even met yet.  It's a roller coaster of emotion.  And every time it leaves me a little sad but also a little glad.

So as of now, it's just the 4 of us again.  We are open and willing to receive a child but of course, it's God's Timing, not mine.